Like great green waves, shadows stretch across their crests and chests. A peach fuzz blanket lain down over their immense bodies, tucking in the earth beneath. Each fringe of billions of cell walls being tossed forward at the foreign beauty screams past. Hard silver steel, decorated with rivets and screws; all the while glistening in the sunshine. Beyond its shining skin it hides away the cells sleeping in their seats, bustling between corridors, each vein taking the cells where they are needed. Each cell imagining the breeze and the wind whistling past their ears. Each cell casting their gaze back to the magnificent green waves that careen by making them missed as soon as they slip beyond the edge if the windows and out of sight. On to the sea the silver beauty urges. On to the sea.

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Run! Paws rake into the dry earth, kicking up dust and stones. The wind that beats past their ears colliding with their coats taking off the sheddings. Turn. Jump. Chase. Sticks crunching under the downward pressure of his huge legs. Sniff. Smell. Lick. Bound to the towering tree. Sniff. Smell. Lick. Pee. Through the gates on, on the leash, home to where the sun glistens on the floor through panned windows. Sniff. Smell. Lick. Sleep.

It only takes an hour of Parks and rec to realize that things get better and work out. ehhh so it's fiction. thats what fiction is for.

Run faster. Breathe harder. Get out of bed. Sweat. Live. Run some more. Bring those dreams to life.

Here it comes again. Shadows creeping from the edges of my mattress seeping into my skin, the porus surface of my body. Like an IV drip through my veins, the shadows are taking me, controlling me, paralyzingly me. "Stay still" I tell myself , Stay still, keep the pain from your heart, push it out. Keep the candles lit and the shadows at bay I tell myself. Feel the good I tell myself. Keep your grip on the silver linings I tell myself. Don't shut down I tell myself. Run it out I tell myself. I keep telling myself there's a cure. But then I shut my eyes and the shadows return.