Here it comes again. Shadows creeping from the edges of my mattress seeping into my skin, the porus surface of my body. Like an IV drip through my veins, the shadows are taking me, controlling me, paralyzingly me. "Stay still" I tell myself , Stay still, keep the pain from your heart, push it out. Keep the candles lit and the shadows at bay I tell myself. Feel the good I tell myself. Keep your grip on the silver linings I tell myself. Don't shut down I tell myself. Run it out I tell myself. I keep telling myself there's a cure. But then I shut my eyes and the shadows return.